Friday 14 October 2011

just an urge to write..

Ab woh shaam kahan jismein ghazal hua karti thi..
bas kuch lafz hai bikhre se....aur khoyi si dhun hai koi..

With a glass of chilled water and some imaginary drops of heaven into it,wintry breeze blowing through my untidy half plaited hair and the sole survivor,Moon ,boastfully shining in the starless cloudy night...here I sit in my 9th floor balcony, amidst the hidden stars and the hundreds of sky-kissing high risen structures....looking for inspiration to dislodge my mind off, the crowd of scattered thoughts.


Poor mind...how much effort it puts in, in escaping the useless and incendiary thoughts that justle it on a daily basis.Alas!it never gets the deserved credit.
There is an incessant flow of thoughts flying around from all over the universe to torment your otherwise callow mind. From 'what to have for breakfast' ,'how did i land up here','what a sick movie','when will i find a job','is he a frnd?','dats a lovely song' to 'i hate that color','where is life going' etc etc..., some unwanted yet harmless,some tottering, and rarely some calming thoughts is what you are challenged with.
It is like being enslaved by a relentless boss who is constantly giving us a job to do.You never have a choice to not choose,the only choice you have is what to chose,and there my friend! sometimes lies the biggest choice of life.
These thoughts have a battleground of their own,inside you, of which you can be a naive spectator or a tyrant judge....again,the choice is yours.
They say 'empty mind,devil's workshop'.But i think you again have a choice before you can put that devil to work..
I personally,tend to get highly influenced by the background score when it comes to such battlegrounds.For e.g sitting in this  soft starlit night,my mind is entrenched enough to ignore the huge pile of books residing on the table and appreciate The night,The music...the joke dat i just read,the friend i just spoke to...the sumptuous dinner i had...and other small yet gratifying things about life.
On the contrary,in a jam-packed,stuck in traffic,hot afternoon...your mind is already debilitated and easily falls prey to anything and everything negative around. The long call you had with your friend..now becomes 'what a waste of talktime on that loser',that sumptous meal becomes 'tasteless calorie intake' and that joke becomes ' wasteful sense of humour'.hmmmm......strange how the mind works.


There is no freedom from thoughts,and there shall never be....but u r blessed with the power to escape and reject.
With all the non-sense out..i feel as though i have conquered atleast 10%  of this untamed,animal like mind.
PEACE!!